VM , firstly, well done on your 12 days dry. No mean feat.
If I can offer any advice (16 years sober and counting) then it is to heeds Dan's advice around complacency.
Even now I occasionally think, maybe just the one glass of cold wine on a hot Summer's day won't hurt.
Fortunately, I am in a position of having fallen off the wagon so many times with this strategy in the past that I know it's 100% untrue.
It will hurt and that one or two drinks in the pub on a Sunday, will end up in a pub in the City the following week most likely, having 9 or 10 more drinks "that won't hurt".
Then whilst I'll be hungover the next day, feeling like a ****, I"ll think, yeah but it's not too bad. I can deal with this.
After that, I'll probably be back on 2 or 3 bottles of wine in the evening at home in fairly short order, generally being an odious cock. Not aggressive but no pleasure to be around but I"ll have the thought "I'm managing this well"
After that and it truly is like clockwork for me, the massive depression and anxiety arrive at 2 weeks. I struggle with these two things anyway, so I used to just end up suicidal at this point, thinking that this would be the cycle forever.
Positively, it wasn't.
Things aren't brilliant right now but none of those issues are caused by alcohol and I think the key for you is that you've spotted alcohol for what it is.
You mention about feeling like a fraud. Alcohol is the fraud, a massive massive lie. Just look at the way it is marketed. Look at how cool it is to drink Haig Club Whisky (I bet this tastes like utter ****) , you can hang out with David Beckham in a Monaco nightclub drinking it . The reality is polishing off half a bottle of in your pants at home watching Netflix.
You're right to avoid the no alcohol stuff at this point. They've improved it over the years and some of them actually are quite close to the mark taste wise and I think that is likely to point you back in the wrong direction.
Might seem laughable to think of it as a gateway drug but 4 cans of 0.05% Heineken on a Sunday, can easily turn into Infinite Session IPA 0.5% the following week.
You'll think, yeah this is fine and physically you'll be right. Before you know it, you'll be on some of those 2% craft beers, thinking what a nice compromise they are and before you know it, you're back on the stronger stuff, with it in your head, for a while anyway, that you never had a problem in the first place (which is where your thinking around you being a fraud is dangerous)
I'm not an overly sentimental person mate but you are one of the first people I actually spoke to on this site back in 2007 and I'd hate to see this get the better of you
I don't think it will. Keep going and if you need a chat about it ever drop me a line, it's one thing I'm probably quite qualified to talk about, if nothing else.
If you are one of those people that like to see things grow over time, get yourself one of those Sober Counter apps. This wasn't an option when I stopped but mine has 5810 days on it now.
I used to write it down each morning at the time and found this method helped me until I broke the back of it. I can go for 6 months without even looking at it now and only ever look out of curiosity and to show my wife, who just laughs as my stopping drinking preceded us being together. She doesn't understand despite my stories of having fallen in front of a bus on Gracechurch St and smashing my face to pieces one time. One of many instances of dumbfuckery.
Don't bother with the pledging not to have a drink crap each day. Apologies to anyone that finds this AA approach useful.
Only my opinion but this type of " I will not drink today" promise to oneself makes being sober an utterly miserable experience from which you will never escape as you will never develop the right mindset to go forward and will see yourself as being deprived every single day.
Oh..... and if it helps , I am happy to kick you up the arse (as per your last post)